I have been the FJR Forum Administrator for over 5 years now.

There has never been a more difficult post for me to make that this one right here.

Recently there has been some questions surrounding the details of Andrew's death. While we'd like to be a forum completely open to any discussion, we don't think it would be possible to do that while remaining true to Andrew's memory in this of time of raw emotions and grief. Also, a number of Andrew's friends and family have joined us on the forum to share and work through the all-important grieving process and we will remain respectful of them.

However, it is important that forum members know the accurate circumstances involved in the loss of our beloved Orangevale, as this is a critical factor for many who are still working through the grieving process.

Andrew's motorcycle mishap was not an accident. It was intentional.

There had been speculation on the whys and wherefore's, but without proof, we didn't want to pander to rumor. Speculation surrounding the circumstances of Andrew's decision will not be allowed on this forum, certainly not while Andrew's children and family are here reading the forum and working out their grief. Andrew was a well respected member of this forum, and we will not tarnish his memory by trying to make sense of his pain.

That said, administrators and some members who were close to Andrew don't want anybody to feel that they may have contributed to the memorial fund under false pretenses. We realize that some individuals hold strong feelings about this kind of loss. If you have the slightest doubt about what you may have donated in the past you are urged to contact ponyfool and he can easily initiate a complete refund.

If you feel you must talk to somebody about Andrew's death you may direct PM's to Ignacio. I personally do not wish to engage even in PM discussion; I am barely capable of getting this post out as it is. Iggy will be honest and open about what he knows. There are also a few board regulars who would probably be open to a PM, and Iggy can steer you to them, as well. I would just ask that you remember Andrew was a great personal friend to myself and the other admins, and we're grieving his death as much as anybody.

Thank you for your support and understanding.

In closing, I want to make it ABSOLUTELY, POSITIVELY clear that any comments made will be respectful of the loss of our friend. Again, Andrew's family members are here reading the forum. If any one of you steps out of line (and you know EXACTLY what I mean), you had better believe what I tell you here and now: not only will I step on your neck and cut you off at the knees, I will ban you forever, and I will erase every one of your posts, and remove any trace that you were ever a part of this forum. It will be as if you never existed here. I trust I have made myself clear on this matter.

Don't put me in a position to do this, people, because believe me - trust me - with the emotions I am feeling right now, I won't blink as I eradicate you.